Wednesday, 28 December 2016


Being overly attached to someone; is hard.

You want them to be with you 24/7
You crave for their time and attention 24/7
You want to feel loved by them 24/7
You want to hear their voice 24/7
You want to know their life update 24/7

Even when you have nothing to say, 
The silence during a call feels better as you know it was your favorite person over the phone.

Your view feels complete as you stare right into their eyes. 

Worse, you can still smell the person even after you got back from meeting them.

Even worse, you missed them literally a second after you got back from seeing them.

Overthinking kills. 

Above all, patience is the key 💓 

3.06am thoughts.


Tuesday, 15 November 2016

Quick update

  • I miss writing. I miss expressing my thoughts through writing. I miss ranting on my blog. 
  • Lately I was so busy that I have no time to even breathe. Lol metaphor sangat, but ya I truly am busy with my student life. Screw those sayings "degree will be much more relax than matrics" cuz no. 
  • For the first time in forever I didn't go back home for a month (october-november) because my weekends were so packed!!! Faculty's event, college's event, camp, co-cu activities, this and that like everything was in a row and there's no such thing as 'weekend' anymore. I was needed 24/7.
  • Had gone through lots of roller coaster emotions because of so many reasons lately. 
  • But I'm still here standing strong- mentally & emotionally.
  • I have 2 pending post about my journey during KPO and Ecology field trip. It had been in my draft for quite some times but I have no time to sit back, relax and enjoy editing them.
  • Assignments, tests and quizzes had started to boom out my life. Stay strong, dear self! 💪 
  • Always overthinking about some ridiculous stuffs but then there will always be someone whom remind me not to. And I'm blessed for that.
  • I wish there will be a fairy who put a lot of cash in my bag. God I'm broke! Why does everything on earth needs money?!? Why can't everything be free haih it would be nice then especially when it comes to food.
  • I can't wait for my mid-sem break.
  • I am actually tired.


Friday, 4 November 2016

Genggam Erat Tanganku Sahabat 3.0 (GETS) at Kem Desa Selesa, Tg. Malim, Perak.

Firstly first, I joined this martial art plus minus a month ago. Me???? Joining silat??!? Don't laugh people, don't. I know it's kinda funny knowing me joining silat as yaa you Lol. Okay but whatever it is, I have my reasons for joining this and let it just be between me and myself. Plus, martial art isn't a bad thing to join in as you get to learn how to defense and protect yourself when you're in danger. 

So, on the 15th-16th October I went for a camping organized by Persatuan Seni Silat Cekak Pusaka Ustaz Hanafi. It was a program for new members to strengthen the relationship among each other, hence the camp was named Genggam Erat Tanganku Sahabat. This camp was held at Kem Desa Selesa, Tanjung Malim, Perak for 2 days 1 night. It was a totally hutan I tell ya!

Day 1: 15/10/2016

Supposedly, the event started early in the morning but then some of us got co-cu class on Saturday morning. So there were two trips that day; 1st- 0700 hrs, 2nd- 1330 hrs. I went for the second trip since I got class that morning. We were gathered at Teratai bus stand and you know....malay being malay they never did what they said. Was supposed to depart at 1400 but nahhh. Reached the camp in the evening, the bus stopped somewhere by the road and we needed to walk to reached the camp site. At first I was like okay.......but then after about 10 minutes of walking we still haven't reach dang it was sooooo inland in the jungle.

That was me, feeling tired & sweating like crazay.

Almost reached to the exact site and we were told that we're needed to cross the bridge (pls don't imagine those nice pretty concrete or brick kinda bridge). 

This. Kind. Of. Bridge. 
The hanging bridge. Only 4pax at a moment.

I swear it was so scary eventho it wasn't that high but those unstable board...
+ the heavy loads...

Confidence overcomes the fears, I managed to cross the bridge safely. Haha. Then we were divided into groups before entering the bamboo hall to join with the first trip members.

At first, this was my group but then we exchanged
one girl with a boy bcs each group must have at least one man.
Since we reached there late in the evening, we perform our Asar prayer first and had some biscuits with tea before we started the activity.

The first thing was they wanted us to get wet. So there was something like perigi(?) or parit(??) ahh I taktau la apa nama dia but it contained water ((dirty water)). The boys started this activity first since out of many they were only 16 of them. Pupus barangkali.

This is how we needed to do it.
The one in the water were facilitators.

....and thats it *splash*

Next we needed to ran and completed all the task during the obstacle activity. Weh this activity I swear it tested our physical and mental endurance. It somehow like kembara halangan during my last time in PLKN.

Finished the activity late in the evening and prepared ourselves for dinner and maghrib prayer. The toilet wasn't that comfortable as ya yknow...toilet in the jungle. I planned not to bath for these two days but then we were all wet with muddy water so whether or not I like, I still need to clean up myself.

Oh and, if you ever wondered where did we slept in yeahhh you guess it right. We slept in the tent!! Actually one tent was for 4 person but then I don't know how or why but nobody was in my tent so I went in Naza's tent and there was only the both of us using that tent till the end. Blessed.

Our camp site.
Meet Naza!

This was where we had our foods.

That night, we had LDK where we needed to draw our flag presented it and did the group cheers. Overall there was 14 groups in total and guess what group I'm in? Ya, 14. So waited patiently and gave them all big applause every time each group presented till my group's turn to present. 

This is my group presenting.

Later then we were briefed about the night walk activity. Yaaaas night walk!! I was so excited and nervous at the same time because it has been so looooong since my last time doing night walk. Well the last one was during standard 6 camping, I guess it was urm about 7 years ago? Quite long enough.

Little do you know that we were told it was a solo night walk. Solo. I've never been into solo night walk before and yes I got a goosebumps immediately. I thought that it was a group night walk where we will be blindfolded and tied our hands together just like my last night walk experience. But it literally deflected my thoughts.

And so, the night walk begins around 0130hrs++ and ended at almost 0400hrs++. It took quite a long time because they needed to let us go one by one. Oh before that, during the briefing we were told  that our password was "hantu pocong" so if we ever hesitated and saw 'something' along the journey, just say "hantu" and if it was a human (our facilitators) they'll answer us and if it doesn't answer then errr better run!

Jeng jeng jeng it was my turn to go inside the jungle alone at 2 in the morning. I zikr along my journey to the end. I walked in average speed and didn't even looked around, I watched my step carefully just in case there's hole or something I'd step on. Then at one point, I saw something. I freaking saw something with a white cloth was sitting down. I knew that must be our faci so I ignored him and walked ahead without even saying anything to him. But I guess he wasn't happy that I was not afraid of him and suddenly I heard steps behind me I was afraid but I tried to not turning back. As I walked even faster, the steps kept on following me and out of a sudden that 'thing' with white cloth on was right beside me and "BAHHH" me. I was so shocked and shouted immediately the moment I saw his face. He was wearing telekung tho. I kept on walking while hold on tears from falling. There were noises of ghost, dog and even cat. I spoke out the password two times at this one zombie-like-human but he wasn't answering mehhhh so I kept on walking until the end.

It was terrifying but a nice experience to boost up self confidence and trains our mind to be braver than before.

While waiting for the others, we slept.

Day 2: 16/10/2016

Woke up early for subuh prayer even though we had only plus minus one hour of sleep last night. Before started our water activity today, we did aerobic exercise conducted by Mr Amirul, the fitness teacher. He and his personality is so funny and cute. Then after finished breakfast, we started our water activity. Basically, we need to walk in the river throughout the journey and at certain points there were some task we needed to do. It was all-wet kinda day!

That's him, the fitness teacher
in red shirt with blue bag.
This is my group after doing our group cheers.

Here are the facilitators & secretariat for GETS3.0

We finished the water activity at almost midday, cleaned up ourselves changed to the GETS shirt and gathered back at the hall for the closing ceremony. Finished with the closing ceremony, it was a photoshoot session before we had our lunch and packed our stuff to go back home to campus.

That was me, holding a packet of mamee monster.
Behind that is the hall we usually gathered.
Meet Naza, my sleeping partner in the tent.

Also, here are some photos of my group.
Thank you for everything we had shared for these 2 days guys.

And to all the facilitators thank you for all the knowledge you gave us. 
Also thanks for being understanding and patience with our 1001 different attitudes.

This was before we were leaving, while waiting for our turn to get into the bus.


With that, our journey in GETS3.0 ended. We reached back at college late in the evening. Overall, I did had fun despite all those silly things I kept on complaining.

Some of the pictures are creditted to the multimedia ajk & Naza.
Oh and, if you're curious on what else were we doing there feel free to take a look on our journey here or search #GETS3 on instagram/twitter.


Tuesday, 13 September 2016

#RoadToDegree Part 1: Minggu Destini Siswa (MDS)

I am back for a week of Aidiladha & Malaysia Day holiday.

So I've been into UiTM Shah Alam for two weeks and survived. Lol come on, it had only been two weeks what do you expect then? I'm not that weak. *rolling eyes*

The day I enrolled as a student for degree September '16 intake, was one of the turning points of my life. That was the time where I knew I was stepping onto another new phase of life.

As usual, entering new place meaning you need to go through the orientation week first. And here in UiTM we call it as Minggu Destini Siswa (MDS).

(I've never like any kind of orientation despite the fact that I usually miss that week once it ended)

Day 1: 28/8/2016

We went for breakfast before headed to UiTM and reached there around 10++am because we're stuck in jammed at the traffic light before gate 2. I was so pissed off with Malaysian drivers like where's ya driving manners people were queuing up for quite a long time and you simply cut off the queue the heck? No patience at all and I'm so not gonna give a damn to these kind of people.

Registered, got the room key and ya it's time to climb up the stairs as my room is at level 3!!! (still can't accept this till now tho). The struggle to bring all of my things to my room is real, I swear. Oh before that, it was only my parents, Abg(?) Kenneth and me whom present on that day. My stuff was like someone who's moving away for 2 years and not coming back home.

So many so heavy.
The four of us determinedly brought everything up and everyone was so lencun that day! It was so hot and tiring and sweaty all day long. I pity them needed to carry up my things but what can I do then.. Thankfully there's Abg Ken to give a hand.

The room wasn't a bit like what I expected. It was much more smaller than my room during matriculation. I've been sighing and complaining that the locker is literally half of my locker at KMS. But then again, be grateful girl.

This was right after we brought up my things. They were so tired.

This was a week after MDS.

Later in the evening we got a briefing on college registration and others. It was so boring the facilitators or so called PM (Pemimpin Mahasiswa) talked talked and talked about stuff. Got back to our room at 00:55, showered ironed clothes for tomorrow settled everything and slept at 02:11. Andddd we need to be in the hall at 04:40 for the next day. Dayyum.

These two are the person I wanted to make em proud. 

Day 2: 29/8/2016

Awake at 03:42 as I heard Kak Mihah's (my roommates, the four of us didn't have any proper picture so ya later I'll introduce them) voice. I was so sleepy and lazy to wake up as I set up my alarm at 03:50. Literally, I slept for only +-1 hour. During subuh prayer we're all like super duper sleepy and got no time to even laugh at the joke PM told us. After breakfast time (I didn't even take the breakfast cuz its still early doh), everyone got into bus headed to Masjid Tuanku Mizan for briefing about academic registration. In my case, I've been seated with the so called 'special group' as I didn't have the matriculation transcript with me. So we the one who're with this 'special group' sits and did nothing for hours while waiting for the other to settle their registration. I swear we did nothing that everything was getting aches. Backache headache butt-ache heartache you name it. 

Settled everything, and then again another talk another briefing at Dewan Agung Tuanku Cancelor (DATC). Had our dinner and needed to walk back to Masjid to perform maghrib & isyak and had some spirituality input kinda night. 

This is in the DATC hall.
Just so you know, the Masjid and DATC is quite far and we literally needed to walk to and fro during that week.

We embarked the bus at 11:55 and got back to our college just to know that we're still detained in the college's hall because the PM wanted to count how many of us and we needed to do that 'cube' thingy. They gave us a bread and water for supper. Finally, slept at 02:10.

Day 3: 30/8/2016

Woke up as yesterday with a super lazy feeling, prayed together in the hall and went for breakfast. Suddenly, it rained so heavily that we've to wait for the rain to stop in the hall. Nah now that's the time, everyone took the chance to sleep and we were like those mangsa banjir yang bertempiaran. Hahaha.

It was the all-day-long-in-DATC. From the morning to the very night all the activities were there. That night, we had Malam Bersama MPP 15/16 so everyone from each exco introduced their members and explained what their responsibilities were.

Just before the MPP entered the hall

Later after the session with MPP 15/16 finished, our PM did some performances sang a few songs and being happy to cheer us up. I did enjoyed despite how sleepy I was because it was around 23:00+. Hence, I just recorded a few videos and posted in on insta-story and twitter. Click here and here to watch. We actually waited until 00:00 to shout out 'MERDEKA!' since the next day was Independence Day. Here's a short video  I recorded. 

Though we were having fun singing and dancing that night, it turned out to be the worst night ever. After embarked the bus back to our college, we were gathered in the hall and was detained because the PMs were so mad and angry out of a sudden. The reason is because, there were some siswi who showed up late like super late (07:30) (no wonder they were so mad) that morning as we should've gather at 04:40. After all the anger released, we got back to our room at 02:20 and needed to gather at 04:15 for the next day. 

I was annoyed, but then I knew the fact that the PMs were holding a big responsibility and they're even tired compared to us. 

Day 4: 31/8/2016

I was too tired that night I slept without even showered. Oopsie. Woke up at 03:00++ just to know that it was blackout. Blackout. Blackout!!!!!! Ergh I swear I hate this situation I thought this blackout thingy only happens during I was in KMS but I guess wrong. So I had to shower in the dark and freaking wore my baju kurung without even ironing it. 

Later in the hall, we were informed that we needed to change to casual and not formal. Like. Whut. After breakfast we went to DATC again for a talk again and again and again I slept during the talk. Everyone who's at the second and third floor slept peacefully with the cold air-conditioned surrounding. We were there until lunch hour, then went to Masjid to perform zohor and Abang Zahir who's face so similar to KJ was being nice and let us took a rest until 16:15. What else to do, sleep. 

White shirt with track suit, casual enough huh
In the evening, we went to Stadium UiTM to watch a football match between I don't know what team vs the new student team.

There was another talk that night, co-curricular talk and the got back to our college's hall. That night there was a sorry session as the PMs apologized because they were going insane the night before. 

Day 5: 1/9/2016

Since we were all performed yesterday, PM told us we could just pray at our room and came down by 06:30 for breakfast. We literally did nothing after breakfast and just wasting our time playing those games with the PM. But truth be told, I'd rather play those games and having fun like that even though it was so childish. I prefer that way rather than sit and being sleepy with those boring talks.
Oh and, we had a photoshoot by faculty until lunch time. 

Later in the evening after settled with lunch and prayer, we're headed to DATC for the Majlis Amanat Naib Cancelor & Majlis Perasmian Minggu Destini Siswa.

Credit: Universiti Teknologi MARA facebook page.

Now that MDS has come to the end. 

Me, Kak Mihah, Ida, Suha & Farhana

Oh yea, right after the MDS ended, I immediately got back home with Suha and Farhana. We rushed to KTM Padang Jawa since its already late. The couch was empty so we conquer it like no one cares. Suha and Fana even ate the chicken rice given to us right after we finished our MDS in the couch. 

This is Nasuha eating her chicken rice.

This is Farhana eating her chicken rice.

This is me...

...eating her kitkat chunky.

Hahahaha. I'm a slow eater therefore I can't eat my chicken rice in the couch.

As much as I hate orientation week, I know I'd be missing those moments later. Anyway, thank you to all PMs who had been patience enough to handle us, 2k+ new students with many behaviors.

You can also search #salammdssept16 #mdssempoi and #mdstanyatanya on twitter and instagram to check out more about our MDS journey in Shah Alam.


Tuesday, 30 August 2016

Writing Challenge #30

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Day 30 : Your highs and lows for the month.

We shall start with the lows first so that we can end it with the positive side, aite.

  • I was so stressed out and pissed off with the system regarding posting out the transcript. Like I've waited for ages and been lurking out the window for every single minute just in case I couldn't hear the honk. But still, it didn't arrive till the day I registered for uni.
  • I didn't get the approval from my parents to go out shopping alone. Alone. 
  • I got an ulcer in my mouth for almost 2 weeks. It hurts but I ate everything like it wasn't there. 
  • Was thinking about to complete my facial treatment by end of the month sadly I got no time though I'm free all the time.
  • Spent too much money on unnecessary things.
  • I ate a lot (read: gained weight)
  • I kept on awake at 3-4am and having a bad dream.

  • Alhamdulillah I got an offer to pursue my degree in Bachelor of Science (Hons) Environmental Technology at UiTM Shah Alam for 6 semester. This was my seventh choice in UPU btw.
  •  Had a good time for every time I went out with my friends. 
  • Someone drove all the way facing through the jammed just to see me here in Bangi for like a few hours. I was so over the moon.
  • Finally went to saloon to get my hair done.
  • Ate a lot of good foodsssss.
  • Went to school and glad that some of the teachers still remembered me.
  • I found the secret box where I kept all the little things (letter, origami, memo, etc.) about plkn in a drawer. I giggled alone reading those stuff haha. I miss being there in PHR.
  • Spent quite a lot of quality time with the people I love.

Here's to many more beautiful life event for tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, and every seconds of my life. 


Monday, 29 August 2016

Writing Challenge #29

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Day 29 : What are your goals for the next 30 days?

My goals for the next 30 days from today's date are;

1. Keep nose to the grindstone; to work hard and continuously- to be in the dean's list student for semester 1 of my degree (ofc for every sem but the nearest is sem 1 so yea).

2. Finish the book I'm currently reading; Finding Audrey by Sophie Kinsella.

3. Make new friends from different faculty and be more friendly. 

4. Spring clean my room at home and college.

5. Start being independent. 

I cannot think more as the next 30 days are days in September which I've started being busy with my student life. I hope nothing but the best, may Allah ease the journey.


Sunday, 28 August 2016

Writing Challenge #28

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Day 28 : Post five things that make you laugh-out-loud.

1. Random things on the internet.

2. Auto corrects.

3. TV shows/movies.

4. Books.

5. Me failing at life.


Saturday, 27 August 2016

Entering New Phase

So, last three weeks the UPU results were out as well as UM's and USM's.

Guess who got butterflies in her tummy while waiting for the result to be out? Yes, me. That time, I hope nothing but to be accepted in any university to pursue my degree. I don't mind what course it is I just want to further my studies.

And so...

Praise be to Allah. It was one out of 12 choices in my UPU application. 

The day has finally come, it's tomorrow. I'll be registering for Bachelor in Science (Hons.) Environmental Technology at UiTM Shah Alam. 

My feelings right now? Nah, you can guess. 

I kindly ask for you the one who's reading this to pray for me. Pray for me so that I'll be strong enough to face this 3 years degree journey. I oath myself to change for a new me this time. I hope everything's gonna be just fine. To all my friends who's also be entering degree, I wish you the very best of luck! 

Oh and, I have like another 3 more posts regarding the 30 days writing challenge. Well actually I've been drafting the post. It just need to be published on the day itself, but since I'll be registering tomorrow I guess I might publish it a little late due to the orientation and stuff. But we'll see how.

I'm so nervous right now.

May Allah ease everything. Till next time! 


Writing Challenge #27

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Day 27 : Conversely, write about something that's kicking ass right now.

Right now, I'm pretty content with everything in my life.

But something that's kicking ass at the moment is,
the fact that tomorrow I'll be entering my degree life.

Isn't scary?


Friday, 26 August 2016

Writing Challenge #26

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Day 26 : Write about an area in your life that you'd like to improve.

My ability to control emotions.

That's probably the first thing I'd like to improve in my life. Emotion secretly kills me inside. When I'm sad, I has a face as long as a fiddle. When I'm mad, I'll be as mad as a wet hen. I'll go completely insane when I'm in a bad mood (especially during pms). And unintentionally, I'll hurt others' feelings. I say what I didn't actually meant. I curse a lot. And I'll regret everything the next few minutes when I'm calm. 

My dad once asked me to control over my emotion when I was apart from home because it will affect myself in everything I do. Like when I was in matrix, it affected my studies. Hence I can't score for the first sem, and been regretting over it until now. I know I can do better but I've been distracted by my own feelings. 

Somehow, the mind is all that matters. You think positive, you'll be positive. 

Stay positive, even when your whole world is falling apart; 
said me to myself.


Thursday, 25 August 2016

Writing Challenge #25

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Day 25 : Think of any word. Search it on google images. Write something inspired by the 11th image. 

I was stressing over my uni stuff, and the word that pop-out of my mind is; strong

...and the 11th image is

This photo speaks that, you're strong enough to lift the heavy dumbbell (is it? idk whats the name) with only one hand without even collapsing. 

By that, I wish and hope that I can face all the upcoming obstacles and hurdles smoothly. 

Stay strong forever, dear self--heart.


Wednesday, 24 August 2016

Writing Challenge #24

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Day 24 : Write about a lesson that you've learned the hard way.

Most lessons in life are learned the hard way. 

I tend to get upset and disappointed for every time I put my hopes/expectation high. Of course, everyone would feel the same as I do when we've planned things but it doesn't go our way. I once lay on bed-cried and stayed in my room for the whole freaking day simply because I was so dejected miserable crestfallen downhearted sad depressed--you name it all. The reason is kinda personal so I'm not going into details ya.

I learned to be more patience. I tried to search for the positive side. I bawled my eyes out whilst looking on the other perspective. I persuaded myself that there's still hope so have faith.

As I grown up, I started to look at things in different ways. Perhaps I'm getting mature (even though still being clingy and immature, sometimes). Now I realized that good things do come after being patience for so long. Maybe He knows the plan we made will destroy us in any way. Maybe the things we hope for aren't good for us. Maybe it was just a test from Him as He will not burden you more than you can bear. The Almighty is wise, fair and affectionate.

There is always a beauty in everything we've been through.


Tuesday, 23 August 2016

Writing Challenge #23

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Day 23 : A letter to someone, anyone.

Life is never easy. People change, love hurts, friends leave, things go wrong but just remember that's how life is. It goes on no matter how hard you wish for a moment to stop. There will be times when you're at the top of a mountain, and there will also be times when the luck is never on your side. Whatever it is, I hope you can face it through smoothly. 

I know you've been through many stages in life but know that there are still a lot of stages for you to get through in the future. I hope you'll stay strong as the person you're now even in the future. I know life gets tiring sometimes but please do enjoy every single moment in your life. You only live once. Explore things. Do whatever things that make you happy. Expose yourself to the world.

When you're sad, it's okay to cry. When you're happy, it's okay to cry. When you're mad, it's okay to cry. And though you're tired of how tiring life is, it's okay to cry. Never be sorry for how you felt. Bawled your eyes out as much as you wanted to but be sure to stand up strong afterwards. 

I know you've never like being brokenhearted, but the world isn't revolves around you. There are various types of human beings you need to deal with and fit in new circumstances every day. People might be backstabbing you, bad-mouthing about you or even pretending to be your shoulder to cry on and at the same time is a two-faced liar. Again, that's life. 

Insecurities? Certain things it's okay to be insecure of but there's also things you shouldn't be as you slay your own way. Be true to yourself, you don't have to act strong every time just for the sake of pleasing others. You first need to take care of your own self; feelings. I know you're good at advising people but somehow, please apply those advises on yourself as well. It's okay to be a little bit selfish sometimes. Know your worth!

May all your wishes come true.
May the odds be in your favor. 
May the force be with you. 

Please read this letter whenever you're feeling blue,
dear future self.

Monday, 22 August 2016

Writing Challenge #22

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Day 22 : Put your music on shuffle and post the first ten songs.

Little Things // One Direction

Ku Menunggu // Rossa

Save You Tonight // One Direction

The Sun Will Rise // Kelly Clarkson

Photograph // Ed Sheeran

Katakan Tidak // Afgan

Steal My Girl // One Direction

I Wish // One Direction

I Won't Tell A Soul // Charlie Puth

I Hate U I Love U // Gnash ft. Olivia O'Brien

Kantoi pulak banyak lagu 1D ni huhuhu.


Sunday, 21 August 2016

Writing Challenge #21

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Day 21 : What three lessons do you want your children to learn from you?

1. To communicate the problems instead of keeping it to their-selves. I want my children to make me be their best friend and also a mother. Be it about school/friendship/relationship/sports/social media/any petty things, I want them to share it with me no matter how big the problem could be. 

2. People are not a mind reader. If you want people to know something, tell them directly and explicitly. Conversely, if you want to know something, ask. Never assume things simply because you think you've known them quite well. No, you may not know the little things that happen. So never assume and don't judge. 

3. Be grateful, have faith, and never give up. Life's gonna be hard but there is always hope in everything. Always search for the beauty in everything you do. 

Perhaps, these might be the three of many important things I want my children to bear in mind.


Saturday, 20 August 2016

Writing Challenge #20

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Day 20 : Post about three celebrity crushes.

Frankly speaking, I don't really have that obsession towards any celebrity. I mean like, if I like them then ya I like them. But to go overly fangirl-ing over someone? Nah not my kind. I do fangirl over celebrity but that won't last for like urm 3-4 days? Haha.

So I'll just post these three random celebrity whom I still adore.

1. Lily Jane Collins. 

Dang look at this lads! 
She's so effortlessly stunning either in short or long hairstyle. I love to see her in Love, Rosie and The Mortal Instrument. Heard about her upcoming movie, Rules Don't Apply that is schedule to be released this November (USA). Wohoo can't wait for it to be released in MY.

2.  Zac Efron.

This one is from 17 Again movie.
Aigoo boy, charming without even trying! Had a crush for him ever since High School Musical series and till now the latest I've been catching up to is Neighbors. Haven't watch Neighbors 2 yet :( 

3. Emma Watson.

One of the 'beauty with brain'
I like her wisdom. Oh I remembered her date of birth is the same with my brother, Apr 15th. 

I think that's it what I wanted to share about. Till next time! 


Friday, 19 August 2016

Writing Challenge #19

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Day 19 : Discuss your first love.


This is so awkward to discuss about.
Let's just wait until the right moment comes.

In any kind of relationship, both should give and take. 

Trust, understanding, and patience are keys to a successful relationship. (do i sounds like pakar cinta? *smirk*) hahaha. But for real, I think these keys will lead to a mature relationship. You can't expect your partner to entertain you 24/7. They got their things to work on and you got yours too. 

As long as you both know the limits, then everything should be fine. 

I'm not gonna elaborate more about this. 


Thursday, 18 August 2016

Writing Challenge #18

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Day 18 : Post 30 facts about yourself.

1. I once got a first place for a race during my sports day in primary school. And, that was the first and last time ever I got a gold medal for a sprint race. 

2. Cute fat fluffy cats are adorable but when I was a kid, in a restaurant while having our meals, a fierce cat suddenly jumped on the empty seat beside me trying to get the food on the table. I was so shocked and scared, ever since that, I hate cats. I mean I don't hate them but I kinda scared & ticklish to touch cats, till now. 

3. I am the eldest child but never act like one. Certain things, yes. But most of the time I'm just that clingy un-independent kid.

4. Call me weird but I dislike sushi. I vomited right after my first try on sushi (many years ago). As for now I can already eat it without vomiting, but to take me out for a sushi date? Urm I'm sorry but it's a no. 

5. I love trying out new recipes! I have a passion for cooking/baking, I usually tried out the recipes I found interesting and the best part about cooking is when people like the meal you prepared. But but, cleaning up after the cooking? Duh I hate that.

6. I am actually a super sensitive person. I get offended easily. I cried easily. I get jealous easily. I get mad easily. Over the simplest things ever. Well I literally have a soft fragile heart but not many know about this as I never show. I act strong. Fake gurl u fake. 

7. I love seeing cute and nice earrings at the shop. I'd love to wear them because I think it's just beautiful for a girl to wear earrings. Unfortunately, I never had my ear piercing. Mum used to ask me to get the ear piercing when I was small but I never have the guts to. Until now, I'm still afraid if ear piercing will hurt me. (I secretly wish that I had my ear piercing done when I was still a baby so I won't feel the pain haha)

8. I don't eat marshmallow. 

9. I've never been into boarding school. Kindergarten- Tadika Maria, Kajang. Primary school- Sekolah Kebangsaan Jalan Empat, Bdr Baru Bangi aka Jalan Empat Primary School (JEPS). Secondary school- Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Jalan Empat, Bdr Baru Bangi aka Jalan Empat Secondary School (JESS). 

10. I personally think the first turning point in my life was when I was 17 going to 18 yrs old. That was quite a tough phase but I made it now!

11. I've never been apart from my parents for more than 3 days (camping & school stuff) until National Service took me away for about 10 weeks!! Read my experiences during National Service here. Since then, being away from my family has been part of the journey; college, university. 

12. I enjoy writing. I don't know but writing feels so good especially when you're in the right mood to express things out. When you're happy, write. When you're sad, write. When you're mad, also write. So that you won't blatantly let out the anger to others.

13. I'm terrible at managing money. I spent on unnecessary things a lot. 

14. I'm the eldest grandchild on my mum's side and the third on my dad's side.

15. Anxiety does attacks me sometimes. 

16. A week before I get my period, it's either I eat a lot like A LOT or I don't have the appetite at all, being so happy or being so emotional, and get mad/pissed/offended over every single thing. There is no in between.

17. I don't know how to swim despite the fact that I love beaches/pools/rivers. (future husband, note this pls) hahaha.

18. A little obsessed with cute things. I simply buy a thing because it's cute. Bad habit people, bad habit.

19. I'm secretly a keeper. I appreciate little things. 

20. Oh my god, I suddenly remembered this! I once danced with a boy for my annual concert day when I was 6 and I did the opening ceremony by giving out the speech alone, on the stage in front of the crowd woah.

21. I don't easily get attached but when I do, I get attached real hard. 

22. I have 4 siblings including me and each of us got 'Izz' as a middle name. It has nothing to do with my dad's or mum's name or whatnot. Back then when our friend called using the house phone, it usually be like, "hello boleh cakap dengan izz?" "Izz mana eh ada 4 izz kat rumah ni" Hahaha every time. 

23. Pardon me, but I'm so not a morning person.

24. I dislike egg yolks. 

25. I only drink plain milk when I have my cereals in it. Koko-krunch with fresh milk; thats how I consume milk. But I drink chocolate/strawberry milk. 

26. The last time I got into the hospital was when I was 9 or 10 I can't remember but because of dengue fever. I rarely got sick, and I'm blessed for that. But once I got sick, you'll see me in the worse condition ever.

27. I hate pills. I can't swallow any pills until now. The first time I took pills med was loooooong time ago when I was sick at my hometown and I remembered Atuk cut off the fever medication into small pieces because I didn't want to take it. It took quite a long time for him to persuade me and right after I swallowed the pills, I vomited. As I'm getting older, when I got sick I somehow cheated whenever mum asked me to take meds. That's the reason why I don't want to tell her when I'm sick but then, mum knows well. Like I prefer the liquid meds over the pills!

28. I love spicy foods!

29. Whenever I'm in a bad mood, I sleep. When I'm mad/sad, I sleep. I feel better every time I'm awake from a nap after fighting with the miserable feelings.

30. I am a nice person until you piss me off.

Now that you got to know the little things about me. Cheers!


Wednesday, 17 August 2016

Writing Challenge #17

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Day 17 : Post about your zodiac sign, and whether or not it fits you. 

So before anyone starts judging, let me tell ya first. I do not believe in this zodiac horoscope thingy. Ya yaaa I know it's against our religion to believe this kind of thing because after all, it's Allah whom we should put our trust on as He determines our lives. 

But I love to read those description of my zodiac just for fun because somehow it fits me. I repeat, I read just for fun.

Since I was born on May 3rd (gift for next year pls?), my zodiac sign is Taurus- The Bull. 

I browse randomly about it and I found this one compact yet interesting post about Taurus. So basically my post today, I'll be referring to this site. Read it first so you'll get the idea on what I'm talking about as I'm just gonna write about my point of view based on what have been written in that site.

Yea that's so me I definitely will help anybody that I found needing. Kind? I think I'm kind (ok not perasan but I do receive this) reliable & dependable? It depends on whom or what kind of thing I'm dealing with, but most of the time you can count on me for sure! Work hard to enjoy those luxurious pleasures? Sometimes yes, most of the time no. Determined & strong? I usually act strong even when I'm not. A romantic lover who will do anything to please the loved one? Hahaha I am not a romantic person at all (I get "u ni tak sweet langsung" a lot). Ok la, sometimes yes I do get cheesy but rarely la.

Become too possessive with his partner or anything that a Taurus is fond of? Yes, indeed. I can't deny this fact any more. Being too materialistic that they will not be afraid to throw their savings to get their material pleasure they seek? Urm this, no not really I can still control this habit tho. Selfishness & stubbornness? Both are so so, I do become selfish and stubborn sometimes.

Taurus Relationship With People
As a friend: Taurus is someone who you can trust and depend at any time and will not hesitate to help his friend? Yes, this is me. Taurus is materialistic meaning he might be asking for something in return when he helps you? Omg this is a big no! I never ask my friend anything in return if I help them out. 

As a children: Taurus child is prone of being lazy, do not want to clean the room, usually prefer being in the room during holiday? Yes yes no. Hahaha sorry mumsie it's not that I'm lazy but I need to get into the right mood to clean up my room hehe. But staying in a room during holiday? Nah no of course I love being outdoors.

Taurus Love
As a lover Taurus likes to take the relationship slow and steady and do not rush the relationship? Err this is awkward but I think it suits me. Usually seeks someone who interested in the same field as the Taurus finds interesting? Nope I don't mind if my partner has a different interest as mine.Show love through material gifts? Not my kind, in fact I appreciate the littlest things. Taurus will make sure their relationship last forever and will do anything about it? Of course, who doesn't want to fortify their relationship. 

Taurus Career
Is a reliable and dependable worker? Will not take any risk of trying something new and unproven? Banking, medicine, education, construction and agriculture? Taurus loves career that has high reward value? Professional? Okay I have no idea on how I will be doing as a worker since I'm still a student. But of course I hope to be a good one.

Positive Qualities
Down to earth- yes
Dependable- depends, most of the time yes
Generous- yes, but also depends on situation
Independent- not at all, little things can la kot
Persistent- depends on situation
Patient- yes, very

Negative Qualities
Frugal- sometimes
Materialistic- hm depends
Lazy- depends on the situation, if it's not important then me being lazy is a yes
Possessive- yeeees very much (need to control this tho)
Self-indulgent- nope
Stubborn- depends on what the thing is all bout

How To Make Taurus Women Attracted To You
To attract Taurus woman, you need to be patient? Agreed. A Taurus woman wants to feel that you will be able to give her a stable relationship, if you have the patience and is able to make her attracted to you, a Taurus woman will never leave you and will love you all her life? Well I guess, I need to agree with this also. Taurus woman loves luxurious things, so buy her gifts to get her attention? Haha I love gifts, I love surprises but there's no need to pamper me with luxurious things all the time as all what I need is your time for me. 

In a nutshell, my zodiac sign based on this site, fits me well. There are few things doesn't fit me but most of what have been stated there, it fits me well.


Tuesday, 16 August 2016

Writing Challenge #16

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Day 16 : Something that you miss.

I am now a 19 years old teenager but there are already many things that I kinda miss. Couldn't imagine me in another 20-30 years, I must be missing everything in my life.

1. Being a kid. I'm only 19 but it feels like I can't deal with life anymore. Well I'm in that so called I'm-still a kid-but not really-maybe-a teenager-that's turning-into-adult-soon-but not yet kind of phase. That phase where I need to start doing everything by myself. Be independent and be more brave than ever. I don't like doing adult's things like why can't my parents do everything for me like they used to when I was still a kid? I miss doing nothing and enjoying life as a kid where people will come to me and "eee how cute geramnya comelnya" while pinch my cheeky cheeks. 

2. Celebrating my birthday at school with the teachers & friends. Oh god I swear I miss this. Back then when I was still a kid, since kindergarten mum and dad will always bought a cake, packed some goodies and brought them to school. Then the whole class will sing 'happy birthday' song before I blew the candle. We had fun eating and playing around and took photos. My my I wish there's an undo button so that I can re-watch the moments of me being happy and playful.

3. My maid, Kak Marni. Among them all maid I had back then, I'm close to my second maid- Kak Marni. So close that I even read her diary and her text with her family in Indonesia. She's the most loving one I guess, she loves us. I cried when she had to go back to Indonesia. We shared secrets, stories together and she'll do anything I asked her. Whenever I'm hungry and there's nothing to eat, she will simply fry some nuggets for me, at any time I wanted to. I miss having a maid :( Oh here's a photo of us back then; 

4. Ok this is so random but I miss having no mosquito bites on mehhh!! Like back then when I was a little cute chubby girl with her 'maggi-hair' (errone called me with this term when I was small) I love to follow my grandpa to the orchard whenever we got back to hometown. And every time, Atuk will say "mesti darah nani tak sedap ni sebab tu tak kena gigit nyamuk langsung" hahaha but true that I got no mosquito bites unlike the others, full with red patches on their body. That was 10+ years ago, now not anymore. I even got bitten in my house. 

5. Doing stupid things in high school. Oh my god, I don't even know what were we thinking back then when we're doing those stupid things. I once got a free counselling session because we (friends & I) did something stupid sabotaging our own classmate. And many more cases of course. But doing those things with your cliques, it was fun like we don't care about others we ruled the school! 

6. Sekolah agama mates. I miss those moments where we were riding bicycle and been chased by the gang of people who got a crush on us every evening. Lol this is funny doh.

7. Eating nasi lemak under the light of thousands stars and gossip-ing with my dorm-mates during national service. I know it's been only like a year ago I ended my national service program but I honestly already miss everything about it. Kem PLKN Pelangi Hill Resort, Kuala Kubu Bharu; here where it all started.  

8. And not to forget even though I just finished my matriculation program 4 months ago, I miss KMS. 

Truth be told, there are so much more things I miss about. It's just too long to be listed. So I guess I'll stop here.