Emo part of me

Sometimes, I just hate everyone.

I dont know why but lately I got this one feeling where I cant put it into words. I feel like a stupid girl. I hate myself for being too weak. At times, I feel like I am feelingless. You know that feel when people treated you bad but you used to it and you was like ah-oh-ok-i-dont-care-anymore.

I personally think that people should try to appreciate the little things they got today. Sometimes, I feel like I'm an idiot yang sibuk kisah pasal orang even if they didnt care about me, my feelings at all. Well, I'm tired of take care about people's heart. Bcs actually my heart, my body, my feels are hurting. Sigh sigh sigh.

I dont know but somehow I feel left out. I just hate that feeling man. Being ignored by the person you love is seriously hurts. (especially with your friends)

One fine day, everyone will change. And of course we'll separated far from each other. But kalau dah jodoh tak kemana kan. So yeah if it was meant to be then it will. Just go with the flow. That is what I always said to myself. So that I wont be that hurt.

"Izz, kenapa kau asyik moody ni? U can always tell me anything." My guy friend once asked me. I usually didnt show my moody mood physically.Yea maybe la dua tiga kali tu ada jugak dekat sekolah. I'm the type of person that didnt talk when I'm not in the mood. I'll just shut up and do my own work. (at sch usually) and I will cry. Ahhh this. Sometimes, I dont know why how what where but I feel like I wanna cry. Always. Without any reason, but I just feel like I wanna cry.

People do not understand me. Even I, myself cant understand me. Haih. Ok dah enough babbling enough expressing enough is enough. It's 00:21 am and I should sleep now. Goodnight!

Loves xx
Nur Izz Hanani

School

Hi bloggies after a very long time no hi from me. Haha.

Well, I am too busy that I don't even have time to blog. Sigh. What a busy life I'm living in. I seriously don't know why and how I manage my time & life but somehow I feel so busy. You know busy? Like busy and busy and too busy with life.

And of course, I am tired. Instead, I somehow feel that I need a vacation for 3 months...........at least. So far, my form 4 year was very tough. Too many things to be done with too little time I had. See how busy I am. And the irony part is, I'm busy with school. Like yea I do my homework like all the time but........................... There's still undone homework. Weird enough.

So I just finished my March test last week and guess what? I will not shock if I get bad result because I know that I'm not putting all my effort and the papers were too hard. Hahahaha or maybe I am the only one said that the papers were hard? Hahahaha laugh at me people because I cant even score in this March test where only 2-3 chapters came out in the exam.

Everything is getting harder day by day. And me myself is getting lazier too. But I know that I need to have to throw away that lazy feeling because if not, my future will destroyed. I have to start from now. Like right now. But yeaaaa....... Words are just louder than my actions. Big sigh. Whatever it is, I have to start study and more focus in class from now on. Okay.
I'll update my blog if I feel like I want to & if time allows me.

Loves xx
Nur Izz Hanani