Sunday, 31 August 2014


Happy 57th Independence Day,

May Allah bless and shower us with peace and harmony
May we live in a better way day by day
May we be a grateful and thankful person with every little things we had
May our country, Malaysia remains prosperous and peaceful.



Source :

Friday, 22 August 2014


"Everyone shall taste death. And only on the Day of Resurrection shall you be paid your wages in full. And whoever is removed away from the Fire and admitted to Paradise, he indeed is successful. The life of this world is only the enjoyment of deception."  - 3:185

Death is a reality of life that everyone will face without any reason to argue. Death is also a reality in life that we, no one will ever know when/how/where it will approach. If and only if, we know when will we die, I bet we are not gonna do the things we had done in the past. And we'll surely fulfilling the obligation, refraining from forbidden things and acquiring noble character. We must be enthusiastically in doing the good deeds. But the fact that we do not know when is the reason we did those things we know we shouldn't.

Last two weeks, on Sunday 10th, when we were supposed to get ready for a wedding, my mom got a news that her grandfather (my great grandfather) had just passed away. Before that, on Friday 8th, I got a news that one of my seniors had also passed away at a very young age. And months ago, I knew that some people had just lost their mom/dad. I bawled my eyes out whenever I tried to put my shoes in theirs. It's such a sad.. heartbroken.. and ah I don't know what's the exact word to be used but, I just can't whenever it comes to someone's death. Because I'm such overly sensitive that I imagined those things happen to me ; losing your beloved ones, and I'll cry a river.

Oh and yes, about that MH17 plane, it is such a heartbroken news. I. Just. Can't. Seeing the families crying and sobbing in the tv touched me so hard. Then I remembered, every human being is bound to taste death. So develop compassion for others, shows concern for others and become less concerned for material possession before it's too late.

Nothing is too late they said, yes but when you've lost your beloved ones, can you turn back time?
To show your love?
To make them happy?
To show your concern?
To ask forgiveness from them?
To tell them you're not mad at them?
To tell that you love them even if you're not showing it?
To say that you've forgive them even if you're acting like not?
To tell them that they're important in your life and you just can't live without them?

No. You can't turn back time to do so. It's too late then. Too late for you to realize to be grateful and thank Him for every single thing He had gave you.

Take benefit of five before five ;
Your youth before your old age,
Your health before your sickness,
Your wealth before your poverty,
Your free-time before your preoccupation and
Your life before your death.

Death is never too early or too late. Just right on time.

Verily, we are Allah's and verily to Him shall we return 


Saturday, 16 August 2014

PLKN part 1

And I was...
lost for words
at a loss

Well honestly, I don't even know what to feel. Should I be happy? Or sad? Or what? I'm confused. I literally cried and screamed the moment I read this. But I don't even know why I did that, I mean is it because I was happy that I'm selected for the National Service? Or I'm actually sad that I've been chosen for it? I don't know. No one knows. 

I'm okay with it because once I told myself, if I'm selected, then I go. If not, then it's okay. 
I wanted to go because the experience there I won't get it anywhere. 
I wanted to go because this program is actually good for me as I will be more disciplined. (i hope so)
I wanted to go because I want a new environment, surrounded by new faces with different attitude.
I wanted to go because some of the activities are quite fun I think.


I am afraid that I can't survive there. (bcs yknow 3 months away without your parents, family?!?!!???!) ((and far as I know, I've never been away from them for more than 3 days and 1 night. And that was 5yrs ago during standard 6 for a camping and during form 3 I went to Goldcourse under school trip. Thats it.))

I am afraid that I don't have any friends there since I'm not that kind of person who'll start first. I mean I want people to say hello to me first, to start the convo first. Because undeniably, I am an awkward person haha idk. 

And yes, my biggest fear is that I'm afraid if I can't be independent without my parents beside me. For almost seventeen years alive, I'm depending on them. Yet, this program is actually to train us to be an independent person. And I hope it works on me since I'm getting older day by day and I have to depend on myself otherwise I'll be in a pickle.


"Yah kakak dapat plkn"
"Oh ha baguslah tu at least you'll get new experience and ni pun exposure untuk kakak jugak since kakak tak pernah rasa duduk jauh jauh ni"
"Tapi lama sangat 3 bulan tu i think 1 month pun dah cukup"
"Habistu kakak ingat nanti dah masuk U 1 bulan 3 bulan je ke? Lagi la 5-6 tahun duduk luar tu"

Hmmmm. I know it's true but I just don't know why I can't interpret it. Sigh.


"(showed my phone) tengok ni"
"( ha nur izz hanani! Dapat plkn kakak haa suka ke tak?"
"Entah biasa je suka jugak sebab banyak benda baru tapi kalau jauh tu hmm"
"Biarlah jauh jauh sikit, belajar erti hidup"
"Tapi nanti baju kena basuh sendiri"
"Habistu nak suruh siapa basuhkan? Semua benda buat sendiri la"
"Mesti banyak barang nak kena bawak tak cukup 3 bag"
"Yela nanti kita beli la bag baru besar sikit"

Hahahahahah. I think it's funny. 

One thing excites me is that I can go shopping all day long to get things prepared for this program. Weeehooooo. So overall, I think there's nothing bad pun if you're selected for this program. In fact, those who doesn't have just lost the fun and enjoyment we gonna have there. Soon. (tktaula ni ayat sedapkan hati ke cane but seriously) All that matters are you and your mindset. So let's spread the positive vibes and ignore those negativity and shallow thoughts of some people that are actually jealous of you! Bear this in mind. 

P/S ; the title of this post got there 'part 1' because i'm so going to write/share about it after my session end. and i'm excited out of a blue. Muahahah bye.

part 2 // part 3 // part 4


Monday, 4 August 2014

Eid '14

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin

Big family of Hj Jufri (my atuk sebelah ibu)
((missing here ; ummy's & cikteh's family))