Friday, 30 June 2017

Sums up of June 2k17

1. Alhamdulillah I am so grateful and thankful that the first week of Ramadhan is a week of holiday, which literally mean I got to spend my first week of fasting at home. Hehe. Ibu woke me up every morning for sahur and all I gotta do is eat cause she prepared everything (yep, even sendukkan nasi for us). Ayah cooked for iftar almost everyday for the whole week and fgs people, dad's cooking is much more better than the one bought at bazaar. Couldn't be any blessed.

2. Unplanned iftar with Aifaa and Siah (UKM gurls) on the last friday of the hols. I went to UKM, break-fasting with a super yums mango float, perform our maghrib prayer and shoot off to Paramount Coffee House at Bangi Sentral. This was unplanned. We were like just go with the flow. Had a nice night after quite some times since our last met.

The food was yums!

3. Hols over, and yeah went back to college and it was my very first time fasting at UiTM. Everyhing went just fine. A bunch thanks of course to my fellow roommates because they woke me up every single day for sahur hehe. I did set my alarm but I still need the touch of a human being hahaha

4. One day I felt so emotional don't even know why, but I just wanted to be alone and have my me time. So I decided to go to engine tower since there got lots of place and spot to study (table & chair). But then Ida didn't let me go alone. And so she accompanied me to my fav spot at engine tower, level 11. Later almost 10+pm got a call from someone asking whether or not I want anything from mcd. At first I was just too lazy but after he insisted then ya okay we had our supper at mcd. 

5. Had iftar with my #smffams at dataran shah alam together with Sir Fairus. We enjoyed the night, and honestly I love gathering like this where we can talk, laugh and have fun together without any stress from our work(s).


6. Week 13 & 14 were such stressful weeks, I just had it enough. I can barely breathing due to the tests, assignments, quizzes, presentations and all. I was so stressed.

7. We had a closed small ceremony for the artists/managers/anyone who involved in WIRASA in the evening and iftar with le #smffams again but this time we prayed together, read yaasin together and ate together all in our beloved 'bilik SMF'. 

Majlis Apresiasi WIRASA

O well, this is our room.

8. On the 17th, yeah it's weekend. Ain had the 'kacau dodol' thingy annually so we decided to iftar and sleepover at her's. I took ktm from shah alam to ukm and Ain picked me up straight to her house. Then later around maghrib Bobby came. We spent the night really well that the next morning I woke up at 1pm (pastu gelabah sbb nak rush back to shah alam balik hahaha) sadly, Sheda couldn't join us because she was down with a fever.

oh and, nabil joined us makan makan too

and here are the dodol i made.
lol jk

9. Also had iftar with Auni and her two boy friends. Hahaha no actually Auni asked me to teman her because she was shy shy like that. So we went to Nasi Lemak Cinta Sayang for iftar. Few days after, Naza and I break our fast at KFC.

10. As I told ya before (point no. 6), this month was such stressful month. My sleeping pattern was ruined. I couldn't sleep at night till it's 3 or 4 in the morning and I'll be sleepy all day long during the day. Heck yeah. There were nights I slept early and at 3am I'll automatically awake. Whatever it is, my body clock is ruined, that's the point here. 

11. Went out to mcd for the sake of ice-cream and got back to college at 2am. He was crazy for being so cool when I was gelabah nak mamps because scared of being merit and all with the guard. Oh and, another crazy thing I did at the end of this month was, agreed when he asked for a midnight movie. Enough said. (the rest let just keep to myself, hahahaha)

12. It's rayaaaaa guys! So this year was dad's side turn which means not going back to Johor. The first day of raya as usual spent the day at Bangi, precisely at Maklong's because that's where nenek and atuk stayed. We visited some of our relatives in KL and of course, I ate way too much. Haha but the best thing about this year raya was we're going for a short vacayyyy weee! Guess where? Wait for the next post ok!

family portrait 💗


Wednesday, 31 May 2017

Sums up of May 2k17

1. The first week of May was my mid-sem break. Weehee. We went to Batu Gajah by ETS to visit Abang at UTP and since it was a public holiday we wander around Kellie's Castle and Ipoh. It was a nice way to end my April and start of my May by spending time with le fams.


2. And guess who turned 20 on the 3rd???!!? Hehehe yup, it was me. I don't really believe this but wow I'm 20 people, twen-ty. Like, oh hello there I'm welcoming you the number '2' in front of my age now. But I guess age is just a number as I'm still young at heart huehuehue.

3. The week after got back to college, I had this Green and Health Carnival event organised by ETES. I don't usually getting involved as a committee member for any event under society because being SMF itself I gotta deal with a lot of event (deal = handle the event). This event was excluded as I was helping out my friend and yea, "asyik berbakti dekat smf je, sekali sekala apa salahnya berbakti la dekat etes pulak." said someone, whenever I complaint about things. 

This is my team, handling the Cultural Day booth.

Our booth
(look how terhibur i am hahaha)

Izz, Jia, Sal, Ida
O wait! We're all with 3 letters name haha 

4. Had the closing ceremony for WIRASA finally. Malam Gala Wirasa 2017 was held at DATC and it was so havoc man. I mean as for our faculty, we had those "claps-claps" thing with those lights just to show our support for #FSGPadu. We had won the first place for two years in a row, unfortunately this year we were giving chance to other faculty to hold that first place. But still, we won the second place and the range gap between our marks was just a little.

well done team!

5. Went for the last game of FSG Wolves at PALAM. Dean last minute cancelled to go but thank god Kak Amal waned to follow me because she wanted to meet her friend there. Ofc, FSG, we never won hahahaha. One thing I realized was that, there are no commitments in the team. Boys, please.

FSG Wolves team. Half, I mean part of the team.
(yg lain tak reti bagi commitment so ni je yg datang last game ngeh)
Ada yang berkenan di hati?
meh pm sis.

6. Group 6 (wuuu coincidentally on the point number 6!) in Environmental Management System (EMS) class were going to Sony EMCS in Bangi for a site visit regarding the ISO standard in the syllabus. Why Sony? Because my mum works there so I take that as an advantage to get through the procedure in proposing for a site visit and stuff. There's group that had been rejected by few companies, how frustrating. We went to Sony by ourselves I mean using only public transport. Independent enough huh?

Thanks to Mr Yusmadi for your willingness to entertain us

7. Another event to be handled, I was assigned as biro persiapan tempat for Malam Pra Graduan 2017. Basically it was a ceremony to celebrate those final year students. At first it was kinda rushed but eventually it went all smoothly alhamdulillah. Thanks to those who helped me with the photobooth set up as I was rushing for OC class that time. 

My outfit of the night as the theme was masquerade

and the team, of course.

8. Had our annual ETES dinner at Dataran Tuanku Fauziah by the lake. The dinner was handled by my batch, so I went simply to show some supports for them. Appreciating their efforts to make it happen kinda things yknow..

Loving this shot, creds to fifiq :*

The usual trio of mine

Part 2 students aka my batch-mates 

9. Had makan makan sesh just before ramadhan with the #smffams and yep, we ate waaaay too much hahaha. 

look at that happy faces kurkurkur

10. Oh and there were nights where I had a nice talk about life with someone whom I can actually tell any random things. Really random, from studies to love to relationships to current gossips and all. 


Wednesday, 3 May 2017

20 Wishes


Well, I'm here welcoming the number '2' in front of my age now.

Officially 20 today. 


Some of the things I wish for my 20s ;

1. I wish for a better me, of course to get through my 20s journey.

2. I wish to grad on time!!!

3. I wish to talk to everyone and anyone, as small talk can lead to new opportunities, friendships and hope perhaps?

4. I wish to be more independent during my 20s cuz gurl, you know you can't depend on others for so long aite

5. I wish to learn to cook more of good foods because I love eating.

6. I wish to take more risks.

7. I wish to be as busy as I can be without complaining. By being busy I mean creating memories and achieving goals.

8. I wish to go for more road trips alone, also with them people of good company.

9. I wish to get myself organized as I'm getting older........and wiser......... Erk.

10. I wish to spend my money wiser and not simply buying those unnecessary things just because it is cute hehe

11. I wish to have my own car before entering the 30s.

12. I wish I will consistently journal and keep everything I do as my memories. 

13. I wish I can learn to say no to certain things and stop pretending that I can handle everything on my own.

14. I wish to read more of good books/articles/mags

15. I wish I'll get to embrace my potential and talent (err lets just assume if i have one ok?)

16. I wish to earn my own income before entering the 30s journey.

17. I wish to pursue my studies in master, insyaallah.

18. I wish I can refrain myself from committing my heart to the wrong person. #ehoops

19. I wish I can control my ego as I'm growing up...

20. I wish to be physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally stronger than ever to face all the hurdles and simply to stay alive.

Happy 20th birthday, dear self.


Sunday, 30 April 2017

Sums up of April 2k17

1. Start of my April with handling an event, Bengkel Penulisan Kreatif with le SMF fams. It was a good sharing from the guest speaker we invited.

us, with the participants of bengkel penulisan kreatif.

2. Had our very first roommate-bonding-time for this sem. It wasn't really a 'bonding' time, we just had dinner together at Mee Ketam. Kinda sad that we rarely spent time together because our free time wasn't the same and even sadder, I'll always be the busiest one among them so we rarely could hang out complete four.

This is Kak Fiza

also, Ida and Auni

3. On the first day of April also, was the day I knew everything had came to an end like for real. I still think of the positive side before, but then found out something I shouldn't so there goes no hope anymore.

4. It was one of the weekend where I didn't go back home due to events, so I spent my time with my other family nah who else, smf fam bam of course. We went to Setia City Mall in the morning and went back to college in the evening. Well actually, the main purpose was to eat Mr. Dakgalbi!! Hehe :3 Basically all we did were eating and shopping! Hahahaha.


this is also lahv, dont worry hehe 

5. First week of the month, I was so stressed out and depressed. Everyday got meetings and everyday got back to my room late in midnight also everyday I was so barai and rabak. My studies were somehow been carried away~~~ Some noticed, they asked and all I said was "I'm okay, don't worry. Penat sikit je." when my whole world actually was falling apart... And I cried. That's the moment you know my level of tiredness was at the max.

6. Oh I met someone throughout the journey of handling my FSG team for Liga Futsal. It was nice to know you as you got that positive vibes I needed that time. 

7. I lost my Nek Long on the 14th :'( tak sempat nak balik Gombak due to running errands. Al-fatihah, you've suffered enough may you rest in peace over there, Nek Long.

8. Being the treasurer for FSG Wolves team made me automatically being part of the team which literally means you-need-to-get-involved-with-those-boys-thingy. Okay guys, as a dedicated exco sukan secretariat, I turun padang and support them okay. First game was at Shah Alam and the second game was at Puncak Alam, and I went there for the sake of supporting them team. But both game also, we lose. Sokay, still proud of ya guys. Zzzzzz.

this was during the first game
thank you datang support exco sukan hehe

this was at palam for the second game

ft. Nizam

9. As for WIRASA, I went for some events to support FSG team. And FSG was given to become the host for Tarian Rampaian Tradisional. It was such a hectic week, because we were so busy with WIRASA but thank god that everything went smooth. We managed to organize Tarian Rampaian Tradisional at Pusat Sukan successfully! Too many photos to be uploaded but I guess it'll be in another post.

This sums up everything.
Well done, team!

10. During the busy-ness of WIRASA, we also gotta prepare for ASM. So now can you imagine how exhausted my days were? One after another event, been used to it now haha. As for Anugerah Saintis Muda, I was assigned as biro multimedia, one of the toughest biros. But things went well cuz I got my team hehe. Also, more photos will be uploaded later in another post.

sums up of ASM2017

11. I swear this month has been such a roller-coaster month. I was disconsolate, inconsolable, brokenhearted and everything that deals with negative sad sorrowful emotions. Went through a lot of things, gotta deal with lot of things yet still smiling on the outside. Not trying to flaunt, but yes I am that strong 💪 only one or two who knew what I was dealing with this month. I thanked you people for being there to somehow give me strength.


Friday, 31 March 2017

Sums up of March 2k17

1. I got back to UiTM on the 5th, registered for college since lectures started on the 6th. As usual my stuff was like someone who's not going back home for 3 years. Lol but thank god my brother was also on his mid-sem break so I got an extra hand there to carry my freaking heavy luggage to my room on the third level.

2. After 41 days, I finally discussed about it with someone. And after 43 days, I finally received that notification but then it stopped there-

3. The first week usually would be kinda a relaxing week because some lecturers won't be entering the class. But in my case, it was totally different as the first week had been so hectic and exhausting with all the meetings. 

4. There was a sudden event on week 2 saturday, "Ready For Success" (R4S). We were informed about the program like 2 days before the happening day but thank god it went well. 

big applause to my team! 👏

5. We celebrated Ariessa's 20th birthday in her room. Had pizza and a lot of joys together. We talked and gossip-ed about things. Oh well, the girls thing...

6. On the 24th, we had Majlis Surat Perlantikan Ahli Jawatankuasa. Basically it was all about the appointment of FSG's leadership. 


7. Undeniably, March had been such a worst month for me this year. Gone through worse breakout, also heartbreak. I was so stressed out and tired. Tired of everything. Nuff said. Just that, I'm truly grateful for the existing of some people who was there with me during my downs.

8. We (+ain bobby sheda) finally had a group skype call after soooooo long of planning! Hahahaha yes, it was our very first time doing a skype call. Lewls. We had a talk until almost 2am and I even got down to level 1 for the sake of a good wifi connection. Phew~

9. I went back home finally on week 3. And Poksu, Cikde, Makjue & Ebby sent me back to college but before that we went to Damansara to have some good foods. Hehe.

blessed <3

Sunday, 26 March 2017

Half a heart

After all, you were right.

What you were once thought, had finally came to hit your reality.

It was hard, but you gotta pretend that it wasn't. 
You doesn't want to look weak though you are.

It was hurt, but you gotta pretend to look fine.
You smiled, though your heart was being stabbed by thousands of knives.
You laughed, though deep inside you were shedding tears.
You made jokes, though your mind were just about to explode out of anger. 

"are you okay?"
- was the hardest question ever. 

Words after words.
Promises after promises.
Lies after lies.

Trust been broken. 
Aches been taking over. 


It kills everything.


Thursday, 2 March 2017

#RoadToDegree Part 2 : Semester 1

Hola voila! 

So I officially ended my first semester on 20/1/2016. Five more semesters to go before I can legally be a degree holder, insyaAllah. (pls doakan tak extend) (long way to go but-)


Basically how to sum up my semester 1.

Ok wait, where to start huh 🤔

Okay la, first let's start with roommates since I've been living my whole semester with them. My room (1B-03-26), consists of 4 pax at first until one of my roommates, Kak Samihah checked out from the room. Ceh. She went for SPA (urm i tak ingat it stands for what, malas nak google) in nursing at Perak if I'm not mistaken. So there were only the three of us; Farhana, Ida & I in the room till the end.

I talked about my room in the Part 1 post. Check it out there! (I'll put the link at the end of this post)

Moving on to the classmates. Okay basically my course (AS229 - Environmental Technology), got few classes A, B, C, and urm am not sure how many of them. But one thing for sure is that, mine was AS229 1A which consists of students from foundation/matriculation & a few from diploma.

This class photo shoot was during the second or third week after class started I guess. (awal gila kan!)
This time, honestly I didn't even recognize them as my classmates. Well in fact, after a few months also, I don't even know some of their name especially those who's very quiet and shy.

Among the first whom I be friend with.
Ida, Hazirah and Naza. 

For this semester, I took 7 subjects in total with a sum of 20 credit hours.

1. BIO510- Ecology

Back then during my matrix life, Ecology was one of the chapters in Biology. But now it literally became a subject itself. So please imagine how the struggle was. We learned about animal species, plant species and their habitats. (Ecology itself is defined as the study of living organism with the environment) Gosh I dislike memorizing the species scientific name!

And also.....please imagine how sleepy I was during the 3 hours of lecture EVERY WEDNESDAY EVENING. EVENING. 2pm-5pm. Oh no, I think I should've capslock the 3 HOURS hahaha. I'm sorry madam that I always to seem focus when the fact is that my mind wasn't concentrating and cannot brain during your lectures.

Oh ya, we had our very first field trip regarding this course. Believe me I had the draft of the trip already but then I kept on procrastinate and...........there goes nothing. I dah malas nak edit and it doesn't seems to be fun anymore as days passed. So yeah I didn't publish it huhu.

But worry not, here are some of the pictures during the field trip.

It was held at Batu Gajah, Perak for 3 days 2 nights.

ni my group for the task there
Syazwani, Naza, Ida, Zawani and I.

it was raining so we had to put on our rain coat
hehe cute en :3


2. CHM420- General Chemistry

I should've scored this. Everything was just the same like Chemistry in matriculation except for the fact that I learned it in a more wider range in uni.

If and only if I didn't forget all those things I learned in matrix.
If and only if I put in extra effort and studied more despite my busy-ness.
If and only if I really focus in class and did more exercises.

Tbh, chemistry is one of my fav subject since then.

Nah, you can't turn back time, girl.

one of those days where we finished our lab early

3. MIC455- General Microbiology

"apa la yang u all buat dekat sini study pasal bateria kenapa tak study economy ke..blabla"
once said by Mr. O

Thank god I'll never need to take this subject for the other semester. Blergh. I don't know how to describe it, it was fun learning about all the microorganisms/bacterias/virusses and stuff but there's a tiny line between us that hinder me from being attached to microbe.

that one apparatus describes what microbiology is; microscope
(looke at meh, so focus gituwww)

 dah observed, haruslah capture!
urm yknow....lab...reports..

4. EVT427- Environmental Science

I looooooove evt's lecturer, Madam Nesa. She's so nice so soft-hearted like that. (despite that her teaching skill urm not so urm you know) This is just the basic and the sums up of what my course is all about. The details will be learn in the rest of the semester. It's all about the environment people wake up and aware of your environment please.

5. CTU551- Islam and Asian Civilization 

Or also known as the reading subject. Phew there were so many things to read you know. All those tamadun tamadun stuff..... I dislike. Hahaha. 

6. ELC590- English for Oral Presentations

Speaking, writing and reading. Been loving English since school and even now. (sorry la tak power cam omputeh) For this sem, we took for speaking. All we did were presentations and speeches. And loving the fact that I scored for my informative and persuasive speech. Wehoo.

7. HBU111- National Kesatria 1

Ok last but not least, co-curricular. I needed to take and pass co-cu for 3 freaking semesters okay! This is the only choice I had back then, because hm  PALAPES, ROTU, NAVY, SUKSIS and all those so called badan-beruniform are so not me. 

Kawad, obviously that was the only thing in kesatria. 

Okay la, well at least we learned about the survival in the jungle also so we had a day for cooking.

and guess what my group decided to cook?

 yes, maggi & sandwich!
(nampak sangat pemalas hahahaha)

AS2, last day of co-cu.
Look at Cikgu Mat Faizal so cute in the middle 

So that's all about the subjects.

Now moving on to what I've been participating and doing besides studying throughout the first semester.
I joined martial art, Silat Cekak. Hahahah I know this is so weird but why not? Sadly I got so busy in the middle of the semester so I back-off because I can't fully give my commitments in attending the practice though it was only on Tuesday & Wednesday night 8.15-10.15pm. However, I got to learn a lot in a short period and insyaAllah I'll continue it later. Oh and, I managed to join two of the society's program, GETS3.0 and also went to Hari Sukan Negara at PALAM for a demonstration. Read on about GETS3.0 here. 

Also I love to join those kind of charity fun run whatsoever but why the fees gotta be so expensive huh? I mean ya, as a student kan I'm always broke lol. Another reason why I didn't join even though I wanted to is because my friends here are very not so supportive for this kind of events. But I did once joined for the Zombie Run Attack with my KMS classmate!

Meet Wansyu!

Oh ya, almost forgot about my victory. Ceh poyo je lebih. Earlier of the semester there were HSWJ (Hello Senior, Welcome Junior) program which something like a tour around the faculty for us the newbies. We were divided into groups for the explorace and guess whose group won for the second place?! 😏

my team, of course!
(i look like a friggin egg)
(thats why i tak suka pegang camera when selfie ugh) 

I also joined the FSG marching team for Sukan Antara Fakulti (SAF) 2016 and fortunately, we won the third place despite a very intense condition before the competition were held. 

One of my turning points in this semester was that I've been assigned as Exco Sukan dan Rekreasi for Sekretariat Mahasiswa Fakulti (SMF) session 16/17. 

Okay, here's how it all began. One day I was walking with Naza and passed by the SMF room and saw the application form to be a secretariat. I was like "Naza, jom apply saja saja mana la tahu dapat ke" "Haa okay jom, boleh gak since aku pun takde join apa apa lagi" said Naza. 

So we both applied. We both were called for the interview. We both attended the interview. But I was the only whom passed the interview. Naza didn't because she literally being tah pape katanya hahaha.

As for me, my partner during the interview was Furqaan. We were interviewed by Kak Kina, Abang (?) Shahiman Manja and another one Kakak ni but I forgot who. I cam biasa je la I answered all their questions and so on and they kept on saying "ok guys relax la kita lek lek santai je k" Hahahaha maybe we looked nervous I guess. 

So after passed the interview, those who passed we were called as 'Calon SMF' and we were needed to join KPO, Kursus Pengurusan Organisasi 2016. I had a draft about the journey there but I procrastinated and sadly my phone was acting up back then so I lost em all the pictures during KPO. How sad. But worry not, you guys can see the whole thing on FSG's facebook. Click here

On the 22nd December 2016, I was officially assigned as a secretariat. Oh I forgot something, mesti people be like izz exco sukan???!? Hahaha. Truth was that, I actually applied for Exco Keusahawanan and Exco Multimedia & Publisiti. But end up, I got Exco Sukan & Rekreasi. Don't ask I myself do not know how the process of choosing be like. So I take this asa new challenge for myself, getting involved in this leadership thingy. 

Here's photos during the Majlis Watikah Perlantikan SMF 2016/2017.

Exco Sukan & Rekreasi 16/17 ft. 15/16

SMF 15/16

SMF 16/17

The first event we had to handle before we were officially being a secretariat was Malam Pra-Graduan 2016, MPG. This was the event for final semester students. 

Towards the end of the semester, every courses were so busy held a dinner including mine of course. So I attended ETES dinner to support them.

Haih so sad la I banyak hilang those nice pictures because my phone gila!!
ugh stress.

What else?

I guess that's all what I've been doing in semester 1. Might be some other things that I overlooked but I think these are all the biggest impact during semester 1. 

Know what? That's why I love to write about something I wanted to remember for the entire life, because human being is undeniably, forgetful. (Eg: me.) 

Okay la I should end this post here its getting bored now.