*phew phew*
*blowing away the dust*
Urm, hi hello?
This is the very first and last post in 2019. Haih i know i know, my bad. I miss writing too but reality hits harder i was too busy struggling to live. And here we are finally at the end of the year...so i survived, i guess?
Here's me listing down my 19 lessons in my very own 2019 journey;
1. Put yourself first. Prioritize yourself. Love yourself.
2. It's okay not to clarify everything that you do. They can either assume or ask.
3. You can't please everyone.
4. Betrayal in friendship is real.
5. Learn to accept without rebelling that things don't always go your way, oki miss always wanted her plan to work out?
6. Sometimes you have to sacrifice your own feelings to not make things worse, and that's okay.
7. Never put high hopes and expectations on anyone. People can be very disappointing i tell ya!
8. If the little thing hurts you, then it hurts. Your feelings are valid. Your emotions are valid.
9. Putting a lil bit of your ego aside won't cost you much instead good things happened (still practicing on this one!!!) phew
10. It's okay to entertain your breakdown for a little time but getting back up stronger is the next thing after shedding your last tears!!
11. Never expect people would treat you the way you treated them bcs again, people are disappointing.
12. Embrace your insecurities.
13. If they don't know their limits, you set up the boundaries!
14. Just because you watch your words/actions to not being offensive, doesn't mean they would aware of theirs to not offended you. Yes, what again? People are very upsetting & disappointing.
15. Just go with the flow, your plans sometimes didn't work out.
16. Your thoughts aren't real sometimes.
17. When you think rationally, everything can seem to be good (indeed true, bcs ive been practicing this instead of fikir ikut emosi & perasaan)
18. Don't always get paranoid, sometimes it's just your feelings.
19. Always be patience, have faith, and believe in yourself. You can do it, it's just the matter of time as they said great things take time!
Honestly, there were so much more that 2019 taught me.
It was really a roller-coaster ride for me. I was having a lot of heartbreaks and mental breakdowns, i cried a lot, i was having an anxiety attacks few times, i was so depressed due to lots of thing. Please don't get me wrong, all these sources for my breakdowns were not because of my love-life alone. I used to get "izz u ok? gaduh dengan boyfriend ke?" whenever i tweeted or exposing my depressive side. LOL NO. Most of the time it has nothing to do with that, it has always been me and myself.
Adulting is hard.
That's one thing for sure.
Despite all the depressing times, i do have those sweet moments this year. So much new memories been created, adventures to be longing for and moments to be missed.
And as usual, i hope nothing but the best for the new year.
May the new year be filled with so much blessings.
Happy 2020 yalls!
Love,
NIH
