Friday, 20 March 2015

Messed up

I don't know what is wrong- everything's fine tho.

But I'm a bit knackered, lately.

I don't have any problem I guess. I mean that serious-big-heavy kind of problem. My sleeping schedule is messed up. I can't sleep at night. It's not that I do not want to sleep, but I just cannot sleep; even when I'm actually freakin sleepy&tired. As a consequences of not getting enough sleep, headache attacks. Duh.

Hahaha I sounds like a depressed young girl with a lot of problems needed to be solved at the same time. But no, I'm not depressed-despite that sometimes I get emotional. A bit.

Can somebody tell me how to fix a messed up sleeping pattern?

P/s; my plkn part 3 post is still in progress.


Thursday, 5 March 2015



Many praises to Him, for everything I have now.

So yeah, got my SPM result already. I am thankful and grateful for what I've achieved, despite the fact that I do expect more. No, I didn't get straight As but I've passed my target. So lets just be thankful and not to cry over it. I believe He has a better plan. This reflects the efforts and struggles of mine, so try harder next time girl! Anyway, I'd like to thank each and every one of you whom stay with me during my ups & downs-- family/friends/teachers//any other stranger lol. Thank you for the prayers and supports that finally made who I am now.

3/3/2015 @ SMK Jalan Empat

And now, I'm moving on to the next stage of life!

It's time to choose the right pathway for the sake of my future. 
I don't know what to do. 
I don't know what course I should take. 
I don't know which Uni I should go.
I don't know what my passion is.
I don't know what is my ambition. 
I don't know what's going to happen in the future. 

Damn it, life just get real man! Life has just begun. The real life. Be ready to face it, girl. 


Sunday, 1 March 2015

Life update

1. It has been 2 weeks since I got back from National Service which means I've been repeating my current routine-- eat, sleep, playing my phone for two freakin weeks!

2. I'm currently working as a...........nah, just kidding. I'm an unemployed. I'm jobless. I WANT MONEYYYYY. I NEED MONEY.

3. This is an ugly truth but I AM GETTING FATTER. Ok, shut up. My cheeks are getting chubby and I look like a big-fat-lazy panda with my eyebag and dark circle under my eyes. (Its okay, I'm still cute anyway)

4. I am happy and thankful for his existence in my life.

5. I miss Pelangi Hill Resort so bad!

6. I have so many things to be adapted lately. My brain can't even interpret it, I'm baffled and stressed out somehow. From a lovely surprises-a special treat-shocking news-annoying gossip-immature attitude--- and many more.

7. Since today is the 1st of March, I have like 1 day maybe before the day for SPM result. Oh my god, I am scared as hell. I don't even feel like going to school this tuesday. I don't want to disappoint anybody. I am freaking afraid. Nervous. Ok enough, lets just pray and have faith in Him. I hope everything goes well. Hoping for the best for all 97s!