Last Teen Year

It's May 3rd,

and

guess who's turning 19?!

Woke up today to many wishes from whatsapp, facebook & twitter saying 

"happy 19th birthday izz" 

Is this really happening? I am 19 people who would've even thought of that like, didn't I just turned 13 last year and started my high school? Nope, reality slaps hard. I am now living in my last year with a -teen behind my age. Praises be to Him as I survived my teen years. 

Here are my 19 things I've learned by 19 :-

1. Being grateful & thankful. Never compare yourself with others who has more, but those who has less and you'll definitely be even more grateful & thankful for every single thing you had.

2. I learned to cultivate my trust in others little by little. Jsyk, I don't trust people. I don't trust words. Often they said this and done that. Even worse, being lied to. Commitments; dealing with people are the reason why I need to trust. (but I still don't fully trust people 100%)

3. It's okay to be alone. Going to cafe and eat alone, shop alone, walk alone, do your own work alone regardless of your circumstances. Sometimes you just need you-and-yourself time alone and that's okay.

4. Wear and style yourself as you wish. Make-up if you want to. Never bother about what people are saying as long as you're fine with it. Just be confident with yourself!

5. Call/text your family and tell them how's your day. They love you more than you'll ever know. 

6. Speak up. You're deserved to be heard. Don't be afraid to let others know what's on your mind- your opinion is indeed needed. Right or wrong is another story.

7. It's okay to be a little bit selfish. Sometimes, you need to prioritized yourself before others. You have to put your happiness first before others. It's not selfishness- but it's doing what's best for you.

8. People come and go as they wish. Accept that fact even if it hurts. There must be a reason for their leaving and staying in your life.

9. It's okay to cry out loud because of stress. Being depressed is suffocating. The struggle is real. But that's just how life is.

10. It's okay to say no. You don't need to give an explanation or feeling guilty. 

11. You will go through times of sadness that seem like a never ending tunnel, but that's okay. There is always light at the end to give you back your spirit.

12. Never apologize for your feelings. You have the right to feel the way you do.

13. Failure is an option. It's okay to fail your tests and quizzes. It's okay to fail in your relationship with people. It's okay. Failure is a chance for you to learn from your downfall. Your desire shall flourish through the mistakes.

14. Keep learning because you don't know everything yet.

15. Live everyday like it's your last. So cliche yet so true. There's no guaranteed of tomorrow so do what makes you happy.

16. Expectation hurts. The more you expect, the more things will never work as they should. High hopes lead to the greatest disappointment. So less your expectation, lower down your hope and just follow the flow.

17. Forgive people even when they're not sorry. I know this is easier said than done but really, it costs nothing to forgive others and you'll be at peace after that. 

18. Treat people the way you wanted to be treated. Be kind to those that are unkind towards you, it's okay.

19. Last but not least, love yourself. Believe in yourself. Have faith and have hope. There is always hope. 

Happy 19th birthday, dear self.

Thank you for all the warm wishes guys! xx

Love,

NIH