Messed up

I don't know what is wrong- everything's fine tho.

But I'm a bit knackered, lately.

I don't have any problem I guess. I mean that serious-big-heavy kind of problem. My sleeping schedule is messed up. I can't sleep at night. It's not that I do not want to sleep, but I just cannot sleep; even when I'm actually freakin sleepy&tired. As a consequences of not getting enough sleep, headache attacks. Duh.

Hahaha I sounds like a depressed young girl with a lot of problems needed to be solved at the same time. But no, I'm not depressed-despite that sometimes I get emotional. A bit.

Can somebody tell me how to fix a messed up sleeping pattern?

P/s; my plkn part 3 post is still in progress.

Love,

NIH

Results

Alhamdulillah.

Many praises to Him, for everything I have now.

So yeah, got my SPM result already. I am thankful and grateful for what I've achieved, despite the fact that I do expect more. No, I didn't get straight As but I've passed my target. So lets just be thankful and not to cry over it. I believe He has a better plan. This reflects the efforts and struggles of mine, so try harder next time girl! Anyway, I'd like to thank each and every one of you whom stay with me during my ups & downs-- family/friends/teachers//any other stranger lol. Thank you for the prayers and supports that finally made who I am now.

3/3/2015 @ SMK Jalan Empat

And now, I'm moving on to the next stage of life!

It's time to choose the right pathway for the sake of my future. 

I don't know what to do. 

I don't know what course I should take. 

I don't know which Uni I should go.

I don't know what my passion is.

I don't know what is my ambition. 

I don't know what's going to happen in the future. 

Damn it, life just get real man! Life has just begun. The real life. Be ready to face it, girl. 

Love,

NIH

Life update

1. It has been 2 weeks since I got back from National Service which means I've been repeating my current routine-- eat, sleep, playing my phone for two freakin weeks!

2. I'm currently working as a...........nah, just kidding. I'm an unemployed. I'm jobless. I WANT MONEYYYYY. I NEED MONEY.

3. This is an ugly truth but I AM GETTING FATTER. Ok, shut up. My cheeks are getting chubby and I look like a big-fat-lazy panda with my eyebag and dark circle under my eyes. (Its okay, I'm still cute anyway)

4. I am happy and thankful for his existence in my life.

5. I miss Pelangi Hill Resort so bad!

6. I have so many things to be adapted lately. My brain can't even interpret it, I'm baffled and stressed out somehow. From a lovely surprises-a special treat-shocking news-annoying gossip-immature attitude--- and many more.

7. Since today is the 1st of March, I have like 1 day maybe before the day for SPM result. Oh my god, I am scared as hell. I don't even feel like going to school this tuesday. I don't want to disappoint anybody. I am freaking afraid. Nervous. Ok enough, lets just pray and have faith in Him. I hope everything goes well. Hoping for the best for all 97s!

Love,

NIH

10 things I've learnt in PLKN

1. What is family love

2. To be more thankful & grateful

3. Appreciate

4. To trust people

5. Support each other

6. To not judge so quick

7. Being open minded to everything

8. Control my emotions

9. Be independent

10. Spend time wisely



Of course, it's not just ten. I'll elaborate and mumbling more about life in plkn in other post.

PS; I'M BACK PEOPLE I'M BACKKKKK *waves like a queen*
PPS; SPM RESULT IS ON NEXT TUESDAY 3rd MARCH 2015 *dead*

Love,

NIH

PLKN part 2

People were so busy checking on their placement for the 1st group.

While 

there's me

scared & excited 

at the same time

to check mine.

.

..

....

I gathered the strength and with the boldly heart,

I checked mine.

AND YOU GUESS WHAT PEOPLE

I was so shocked.

Happy.

Nervous.

Sad.

Delighted.

Dumbstruck.

Speechless.

(over beno but thats the fact)

While still in shocked, I checked via text also.

(just to make sure it's true)

Few days later....

My my, call me crazy cause I am.

Alhamdulillah, I am so grateful and feeling blessed.

And so, I've been chosen for the 1st group placement which starts this 7th December 2014/Sunday until 14th February 2015/Sunday at Pelangi Hill Resort Camp, Kuala Kubu Bharu, Selangor. Yeah I am double grateful that the camp is in Selangor (even if its still gonna take like 1-2 hours but still, it is in selangor).

So I received this love-letter on 18th November 2014 at 2.06pm

So proud that my name is stated on an official kind of letter hahah what even

Everything is done after I finished my exam and guess who's that freaking excited person on earth? Yea yup I don't even know why am I that excited but yes I am. Probably the shopping part that excites me, somehow.

Oh and not to mention that all the stories/thoughts/words from my dad's friends that even boost up my excitement. Really, thank you uncle(s). 

Dad : first week nanti mestila terasa jugak since kakak tak pernah pergi jauh, kalau nangis pun first week je pastu jumpa kawan nanti enjoy la 

Mum : ala takdenya ibu tak rasa kakak nangis nangis dekat sana, best apa jumpa orang baru

Hahahahaha my parents are betting on me. Lets just see who's right and who's wrong. But honestly, I think Im gonna cry maybe after they sent me off, on the bus. 

"Hanya dibenarkan bawa 1 bag pakaian dan 1 bag sandang"

And how do you think that is fine?! Like seriously, I re-packed everything for 2 times because my things can't fit in that bag. Like only ONE FREAKING BAG R U SERIOUS MAN? 

Am I ready? Physically and mentally? I don't know. But I'm kinda excited too!! But I'm afraid too and nervous too and...ok. Wtvr it is, tomorrow is the day! I'll be away for like 3 months? (am back officially on 14th feb anyway) 

Okay so,

Please pray so that everything is gonna be easy for me. Pray that Allah ease everything for me. And do come and visit me during weekend- not to forget to bring good foods along hehehe

Bye everyone, take care <3

part 1 // part 3 // part 4

Love,

NIH