Break a Leg, 97's!

*take a very deep breath*

One step closer...

First and foremost, time flies that I couldn't even believe that this is going to happen. This thing gonna get real. I still remembered the first time I entered high school and now, I'm going to end my high school life in less than a month. I am now a senior and will end my senior year soon. Real soon. How fast that I didn't realize it.

In spite of that, I am going to sit for the exam that will be the baby step for my future that is Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM). Can you believe this??? Can you? Cause I can't. Hahah I still can't believe that I am now seventeen tho. So yeah, I'm gonna sit for SPM this Monday. I repeat, This freaking Monday 3rd November 2014.

Am I afraid? Yes.
Am I scared? Yes.
Am I nervous? Yes.
Am I confused? Yes.

I got this mixed feelings ever since I entered form 5. But I know that no matter what, I need to face this. No matter how scared I am. Well actually, it's not that I am thaaaaat scared to sit for the exam but to hold this responsibility to get straight A's is hard. Everyone is putting a very VERY high hopes on me. And to see them all get disappointed is obviously not my goal. I'll definitely want to make them proud and happy--really.

So I am here to apologize to each and everyone of you if I ever hurt you or if you ever get cheesed off by me, I am truly sorry. It wasn't my intention to hurt anyone;;seriously. To all 97's babies, I wish you guys the very best of all. Lets create a new record you rock! Break a leg!

Please please pray for me as well, wish me luck and may Allah ease everything throughout the exam. I'll try to do the very best of it, if He wills.

All the best 97's!!

P/s ; and please pray that I'll get the first batch of plkn/2015 PLEASE

Till then, I'll get back on track after everything's settle down. Peace n.nV

Love,

NIH

Graduation Day - 11/10/2014

I'M GRADUATED

So, last Saturday Oct 11th was our graduation day. Ya I know we haven't sit for our exam yet we're graduating. I know I know. I remembered the moment I looked at the name list of 5 Dedikasi last december and first thing on my mind was "boringnya". I was wrong, I judge too quick. Now it's already October and we have been through together for like 10 months already. And yes, I love them to the moon and back! ❤

So here's a bit of memories we created on that day ;

5 Dedikasi 2014

 Till then, XOXO

#16dayslefttillspm

Love,

NIH

Quick-post #5

#25dayslefttillspm

Start counting

So, what's up?

Yea, finished my SPM trial. Screwed everything. The papers. The questions. The results. I am so disappointed and frustrated and sad to see how my result looks like. I mean like, this is trial man and you can apply something with the result for the sake of your future-bright future and you don't even take it serious. No it's not that I take it for granted or what but, nah I don't know.

Despite the devastated feeling, deep inside I am a lil bit proud and happy (just like 20% of it) that I've improved for certain subjects. Even though it is not good enough (obviously it's not) but I'm quite happy to see my marks are improving; towards better. It's just that I need to push myself to study harder because I know I didn't put the best of all during trial. My effort was like 50%(/<) but I expect for a beautiful flower when I myself was too lazy to water it everyday. Of course, it's like pie in the sky. I know.

The question is ;

To whom should I pass the buck?
Is it my parents?
Or maybe my teachers?
O wait, I guess my friends?
Or maybe those strangers outside?

This is all utterly absurd and perplexing.

Of course it's ME. Who else.

There is still hope. There is still time. Nothing [worth having] comes easy. Stop complaining. Stop sighing. Stop wasting. Start now, because it's not too late. Have faith, dear-self.

#40dayslefttillSPM

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(amagads this is getting real)

Run- as far as you can

Everyone runs.

Runs away from the hurdle.

Runs away from relationships.

Runs away from responsibilities.

Runs away to avoid from meeting people.

Runs away to hide the truth.

Runs away because the truth that has been spoken is damn hurt.

Runs away from the reality because you're just too tired.

Runs away to forget all the problems.

Runs away to deny the facts.

Runs away from your own shadow.

Runs away from the fiasco you accidentally involved in.

Runs away simply because that's the only choice we have.

At some point in our life, we have/need/must  make a wrong choice because that's the only choice we have, and to make things better, we have to. We know the consequences, we know it's not right but then nothing can be done. We have to do it whilst waiting for the halcyon things to appear in the blink of an eye.

But eventually,

Everyone will stop running.
Maybe because they're tired of running;
Maybe because there are no other place to escape;
Maybe because they've finally realized that the world is like a ball;; round like a ball
Or maybe, because they can finally accept the new possibilities- and fate.

"We all flee in hope of finding some ground of security."

Yes, I do flee.