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Whaduuup people.

Midterm just ended around last week. And i dont think that i did it well enough. Just when la i need to realize that spm is just around the corner. I know spm is coming, but i didnt do anything about it. I havent well prepared. Anyone, please wake me up. In need of motivation so that i wont be able to waste even a second of my day.

Holiday week just started last tuesday. And we just finished our puncak jaya at upm for 3 days (tues, wed, thurs) and friday was at school for accounts and next monday 2nd june another class with tchr Jega for chemistry and im so done with extra classes during holidag.

But then......

I need to complete my assignment (acc) and my addmaths spm quest asap. But i think it's too late dah kot for me to hand in spm q. Sobs what a life. So many things need to be done and here i am doing nothing but keep on worrying on how to finish them.

Heres are some pics from the puncak jaya program ;

Sweet 17

Guess whos turning 17 today?! Yea you got it right! Me.

Happy 17th birthday, dear self. You're now 17 so please become more mature and act like a 17-years-old-adult-teen. Grow up, experience new things, make yourself and the people around you proud. Prove to those who said you can't that you can. Being depressed is like a nature for teens like you so just go with the flow. Enjoy your teenage life as many as you can. Last but not least, just be yourself. Don't have to be others even if you're good at pretending. Okay dear 17 yrs old me?

So here i am so grateful alhamdulillah i thank Allah for another year for me to breath. Thank you so much to my parents for taking care of me from the very beginning of my life till now, and forever insyaallah. Thank you to each and everyone of you for the wishes and prayers. I do really appreciate it. Thank you.

P/s : can finally get my license!! Wehoooooo

Quick-post #4

Holla. It's the last day of April. Time flies really fast that i dont even know what have i done in the past 4 months. Midterm is just around the corner (no its not really around the corner its like--ah you know) and guess who does not finish with her revision? Yeap you know who. Haha. And i can still rolling on my bed scrolling my timeline taking selfies and typing this right now. Ok wait, it is already 0000. Happy 1st may! Happy labour day!
Okay bye.
(donno why i even post this but yeh wtvr)
#guesswhosbirthdayiscoming #huhu

Not love but hate

I hate people.

I hate how they never appreciate me. I hate how they never realise my existance. I hate how they never try to understand me. I hate how they take me for granted. I hate how they talk to me when they're in trouble/bored. I hate how they never see my efforts trying to be happy for them. I hate how they left me behind. I hate how they automatically forget abt me when they've found smtg/smone. I hate how they never realise that im there whenever they need me--but they. I hate that they never realise their words affect me. I hate how their acts pissed me. I hate that i have to pretend like everything's okay when it's clearly obviously NOT.

I am always trying to look fine, to be fine in order to not destroy the relationship between me and people. Trying so hard to not care, but i can't cause im only human. Human with a freakin fragile heart. I easily get offended without people even knowing.

Wtvr it is, life goes on.

After all

Ahaaaaaaa. Holla bloggies. Its been awhile since i last talk to u i guess. Ok, this is the first post ever for 2014. After almost 3 months away in this year huh.

Ive so much things to write that i dont even have time for it. Well ya, im 17 this year which so called SPM year. Yeap, its finally the last year of high school. Idk what to feel. Excited? Yes of course i am. Im freakin tired with all those so called school stuff. And yea im excited to finally get into my uni-life. "once u get into uni life, u ll wish for ur high school life back" "tgklah nnt mesti regret ckp nak membesar" "u gonna miss your high school life" and blablabla. This is so typical. I mean yeah what goes around comes around kan? So let it be lah. I mean sukahatilah nak rasa apa pun as if u never wish for those things dulu dulu. Sad? Of course im sad that i have finished my school life--soon. As im getting older, things become harder and you just need to do everything by yourself. Of course i will miss my friends, teachers and all the memories for 5 years of high school.

I have my own dreams. So i must chase for it. The focus now is spm. It starts from here. The future is in my hand. Its me who going to make it shine bright like a diamond or the other way. It is all about me and myself. I need to do something in order to get that 'something'.

Till now, goodnight.

Xo